The other week my Chicken and I celebrated out 2 year anniversary.  To mark the occasion and our love for each other, we both had a Heartagram tattood on our ring fingers.  While the Heartagram is actually the logo for the Finnish band, H.I.M., it still holds meaning.  Seen as a modern day Ying Yang, it symbolised balance between love and hate / fear.  The Tattoos were done by Candice of Tassie Ink.

As for other general happenings, I am trying once again to quit smoking.  So far I am up to day 6 of no ciggarets and no nicotine replacement.  I have also been enjoying lounging around the house as I am dead smack in the middle of some annual leave.  It has been good to work on all sorts of little things I have been putting off for a while.  Not really looking forward to going back to work, but who does after a week and a half of relaxation?

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I have been meaning to play around with a few koi designs for some time, but when one of my work mates was saying how he wouldn’t mind getting one on his arm, I decided to kill some time by coming up with a very rough idea.  It doesn’t look like much as I was limited in my drawing materials at the time, but I don’t think it’s a bad start.  Because my mate is also a big Pokemon fan, I was thinking of working in a few Magikarp and / or Garados characteristics into it as well as defining the water.

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Winter feels like it has come early, with the days getting shorter and the nights getting colder.  But life remains as busy as ever, if not in reality but in my mind.  The days are spent working and the nights are spent snuggled up, trying to keep warm, wishing I could wrap myself in pure, rich Pashmina instead of my scrappy dressing gown and slippers.  The cold brings boredom to my actions yet my mind is as active as ever, and I hate how the two never seem to want to work together.  Yet despite the cold and the rain, I don’t completely hate winter.  Your coffee tastes and smells better, you appreciate even the smallest amount of sunshine, yet look forward to the sound of rain pattering on the roof.  And then to end the day curled up in bed with the one you love, all tangled together to make the most of each others body heat, makes it worth while braving the frosty chill of the morning so you can do it all again the next night.

I have still been playing around with a few ideas for a tribal infinity symbol tattoo design.  Most of what I put to paper just does not seem to work, but this one I have taken quite a liking to.  I sketched the first draft, then completed the design in Photoshop so everything was even and symmetrical.

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I have been playing around with a few more tribal tattoo designs, trying to come up with something for my Chicken. I thought that because my Infinity Rose tattoo on my hand is for him that it maybe interesting to come up with a tribal design based around the same symbol. I was far from happy with my first few attempts as anything that I came up with that had the two loops closed, ended up looking too much like the thorns of my tattoo. So focusing just on just the general shape, I came up with this one. The drawing here isn’t too sharp as it is just a draft, but I was pretty happy with the idea.

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My newest tattoo, just done fresh yesterday.  I thought I would try out a new studio that opened up just before Christmas, Tassie Ink and I was very happy with the result.  The Artist was a girl by the name of Candice.  I have been wanting this test for a while.  The words are lyrics from one of Tools songs, Parabola.  I thought it fitting to have the placement on my inner left arm, over my scars.

No cool video of my own for this tat, but do check out Tool’s film clip for Parabol / Parabola.  It is visually spectacular and leaves you thinking.

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Australia day.  And nothing says Un-Australian on Australia day than having to work.  Not saying that we are a nation of slackers, but it is the Australian way to have the odd day of bludging here and there, where all you do is sit back, fire up the barbie and have a few beers with your mates.  And I had to work.  Slow… dull… boring… work…  There was practically no one around, a ghost town, and I was stuck inside without even a whiff of charcoaled steak on the air…  So to kill time, I got some paper and started scribbling away, trying to come up with something that resembled a tribal tattoo design.  Tribals are not my strong point.  I love the randomness of them, but I can’t seem to let the randomness flow when I attempt to draw them.  Instead, I ended up with a badly drawn tribal / celtic design, in felt tip pen – not a medium of choice as it seems messy and not as sharp.

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What really is a moment of clarity? Is it when all the pieces fall into place that we experience this as we can see the wrong doings of our past, or is it when things become so shattered that we bleed ourselves on the fragments to see the ultimate truth that nothing that we could ever dream will taste as sweet because of bitter disappointment?  It seems at times that my spiral of suffering is endless and that there is nothing I can do to break the cycle.  Yesterday was one of those days, and even though today I feel slightly better, my inner voices still taunt me, making my head ache and spiking my senses, shifting them slightly into that other mode where the shadows and whispers of those not of this realm become more noticeable to me.  Sometimes I think that I can see clearer while in my dark mind, that I can see the world and it’s inhabitants in their true state of ugliness – which makes rare, true beauty even more fantastical, if one can of course find it…

In just over two weeks, I’m going in for my next tattoo – some text on the inside of my left forearm.  I want to cover my scars with something that means a lot to me – some lyrics from Tool’s song, Parabola – We Are Eternal, All This Pain Is An Illusion.  Every time I see it, I want to be reminded of the strength in the message, the strength I have already called upon to not give up.  The font being used is called Edwardian.

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Once again I feel like I have been slack in writing.  Every time I have had the chance I have been getting myself too caught up in other random net activities such as Twittering and playing games on Facebook.  I guess you could say I’m a bit of and addict to the two of them.  Other than that, my mind has been pre-occupied with work and life and what I can do to try and make myself feel happier.  I seem to be having more and more good days now, but the bad ones just feel like they are eating away at me more and more that even though I feel so down, part of me feels like it becomes desensitized to anything that could make me smile, even a little bit.  In my mind I have been trying to work out what it is that I want, what it is that will make me happy and I know what it is, what I feel i need now and want in my near future – but I can’t grasp it, it just seems too far away and I don’t know how to get there, how to make it happen – especially when I feel the way I do.  It’s almost as if part of me is waiting on some kind of a sign to give me that inspiration, to kick-start that feeling of joy in life, so that somehow I can make everything else fall into place at my feet…

Two weeks ago, I finally got around to doing my Om Tattoo.  I this is only my third tattoo I have done myself, but I am quite happy with the results.  It would be great to maybe one day be good enough to score myself a tattoo apprenticeship, but there aren’t too many studios down here and I’d need a hell of a lot more practice before I’d have the confidence to go after one.  Anyway, here is the video.  As always, please sub to my Blog and sub to my Youtube Videos

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I have almost lost count as to how many times I have tried to write this post over the last 24 hours, each time being a different emotion, a different angle and idea.  That is how it is for me, a full spectrum of random feelings fracturing over time.  Now, I am just on the verge of drunkeness and seem to have lost almost all idea of my intention to write.  All I feel like I can do is ramble in riddles that cascade through my mind, dyslexic in my thoughts and my ability to portray them in a way that someone normal – someone whom is not me, may understand them.  I am lost to myself…  I feel such a cuffufle of emotions, I am down because I feel unattractive and unwanted yet I am overwhelmed with happiness because I feel that I am so loved.  I feel like I am at a point of nothingness and meaningless repetition  in my life, but I also feel as if I am on the verge of an unforseen change of beautiful proportions… I am torn between my two side…  My real self and the person I play to have any kind of grasp upon reality…

I have been playing around with my next tattoo design, one which I hope to tattoo myself.   It is an Om symbol, to be tattooed on my ankle.  The infinite sound of the Universe, the ultimate of all and everything that is, has and ever will be, I thought it only a perfectly fitting tattoo for me and my ideals.  I hope to tattoo it this weekend.  Eventually I would love to add a pink lotus to the background, caressing my ankle its grace.  It will only be the second proper tattoo I have done myself, and even though my first is not perfect – it is much better than a lot of others I have seen so I am hoping it will turn out well.

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Yesterday I got myself a brand spanking new laptop.  I am so happy with it!  It’s just perfect for what I need, especially video editing.  I am hoping to enter next years Sony Tropfest with a short film.  I plan to film everything, then animate each frame, also adding in some of my own original artwork.  I really do hope it works out – and that I am able to finish it in time.  It’s my aim to make the top films at least that travel the country for the festival it’s self.  Without giving too much away, it’s going to be a short sort of horror film.  Noting too gory or scary, as I’m mainly relying on my art and animation to make to whole thing look visually spectacular.

Last month I also finally got my Infinity Rose Vine Tattoo done, to forever remind me of my Beautiful Chicken and my love for him (click HERE to see previous post).  I had hoped to have had this video done sooner, but when my other laptop died, I lost all the work I had previously done on it, so I had to start again from scratch.

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This is a drawing of my beautiful Chicken.  I know he doesn’t really look like a Chicken, but he is my Chicken and I love him with all that I have from the day we met over two years ago.  We became great friends and in time, much more.  He is everything I have ever dreamed about and thought I would never find in this life time.  But I did find him, and I want to remember that forever.  In July it will be our 1 year anniversary and on that day I hope to get some more ink done, so he will always be with me.

I believe that there are other things in our World and a reason for existing.  How it all works, I do not know, but I have a thing with numbers.  Even in nature there are patterns that keep repeating themselves too often to be coincidence.  Numbers are all around us and we all have our favourite ones.  Mine is 5 and Chicken’s is 11.  But there are also ways to apply numbers to names and dates to get a Numerological profile on a person or place.  My Numerological number is 11 while Chicken’s is 5.  Spooky… but the two numbers are the basis for my design.  I am wanting to get it on my left hand as the veins run closest to the heart and it is to fill a gap I have between another on my hand and one on my wrist.  The 5 roses represent me while the thorns represent chicken.  The vine is in the shape of the symbol for infinity.  One of the thorns is bloodied and looks like is has pierced the skin, leaving a small inked blood droplet – over the vein that runs through from the wedding finger.  It will make for tattoo number 9 – if I can resist the urge to get another one done before then.

In leaving for today I thought I would post a video of some tattoos I had done back in February.  If you are familiar with the band Tool, then you will recognise the artwork from the album Lateralus.  The artwork is actually done by a guy called Alex Grey who produces some amazing pieces.  You can visit his website by clicking HERE.  I hope to eventually incorporate more of his artwork into future tattoos.

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